I am not sure where I will take this but I had a very fun day today. First, Notre Dame won so my family was happy (I personally don't give a shit). Then, New and Legna and I went to the movies. First of all, we didn't bring any men with us so we all looked a bit homeless. Legna and I were in baggy sweaters/sweatshirts, and New was in a lovely large button up which was her dad's from the 80's and that was an adventure in itself. SO there is a Starbucks right next to the movie theatre. Here we got beverages of course and then went to a table where there were no chairs so we stood around it. It felt quite bohemian I loved it! We then went to see THE POSSESSION!!! If you haven't seen it it was superb! It had a good amount of scariness and it was just exciting to be a part of. Here we were the only ones into the movie everyone else looked like they were asleep. there was a nice group of like 45 year olds in front of us, maybe older and they all scooted 1 seat away from us because we were getting a bit loud before the movie started and then these 4 teens walk in and sit right in front of them!!! So great karma in its prime! As I was saying the movie was superb and then we went back over to Starbucks where I layer on the concrete outside and felt very at peace while New and Legna sat beside me. We then parted ways with lovely good byes. I then made plans with my man friend to have a date in a week which i am ecstatic about. My first real date AHHHH!!!! So today really got me back into life after my hellish week, my friend goes through her next surgery tomorrow (the one hit by the car) so I will be quite on edge but I think after today I will have more strength to emotionally be stable for her. This also got me back on my feet after a traumatic experience I had yesterday. Because of my eating disorder that I had I have to go to the hospital frequently for checkups and therapy etc. So yesterday the doctor said something to me that just made me crazy. For a bit of background; I have never been a big eater due to separation issues from my birthmother. It got very serious in fifth and sixth grade so summer of sixth grade I went to rehab for 2 months. No one new, I told all of my friends I was at my aunts. Upon my return, it was quite an uphill climb until i started high school a year ago and it was a massive plunge back to the bottom. I was severely throwing up daily and running 7-10 miles a day it made no sense but recently like april I got some help and have made a superb upward climb is I do say so myself. Anyway, this doctor and I are getting quite aggressive and he shouts at me, "You ruined your childhood with this!! Why ruin high school too!" Due to the fact I knew it was true I got very very upset, I knocked a book shelf down threw books at the doctor, really superb hahahah! but anyway I was quite shocked and effected. I didn't know how to feel I was so conflicted! But after being with my two favorite people on this plannet I felt sure of what I wanted to do. He was right why ruin all of this great high school experience! Having friers and relationships, I thrive on it and I couldn't imagine what I would do with out all of these relationships in my life. Really, quite a break through. So I guess I will make this blog about relationships, life's battery. Boyfriends, best friends, family friends, family, school friends, church friends, fuck buddies, what would we do without having all of these people to support us on their shoulders. All of these people effected me, my youth, how I grew up, my present, my future they are apart of it all. Legna, 11 childhood years of being best friends continues. SHe effected my youth so much with all of our sumer trips, camp outs in her backyard, all of it was so fun and i effected how she grew up and she effected me which is why I think we are so in sync, its like we are each other but different, idk it makes no sense. And then New she knows like all of my secrets she has really been my crutch all year and with the same activities and being roommates in Italy for a few weeks, she just really gets me on a whole bother level. I could list and list and list all of the people that effect my life sooooooooo much for the better. I couldn't live without them, I couldn't be the best I could be without them! My question today and homework for you all is to think:
Who effects my life for the better?
Make the list and then go thank them and tell them of your love personally. Let them know how much they mean to you.
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